Flowers, Tears, Girly, Eyeliner, Kisses and Love

1 week hols:D

2012-01-06T14:03:00.000+08:00

I’m on a bus to go back home right now with my friends zatie and syafiq J

My first time on a long bus trip to go home J I think i like it..Although my friend, Zatie, threw up... because we were watching Leverage on mylaptop as we leave.. XD not ecaxtly a good idea as an activity on a bus goingthrough a bumpy road.. XD Too bad XD

Anyways right now I just passed through a toll I have noidea which one... When I reach home, Iwanna eat what mommy cooked :D And call Fahmi.. Apparently, the phraseAbscence/Distance makes the heart grow fonder is true XD he misses me a lot..Alhamdulillah XD he loves me alright :p I miss a lot of things in subang!

And just so all ofyou know, This is my first time coming home since 16th November 2011, the day Ientered UITM Segamat, Johor..

Soo SUCK IT! To thosewho said I won’t survive in UiTM! :p

I made it just fine :P

Thats about it,

Love Always,

AmyRamli

UiTM Life

2011-12-09T12:43:00.001+08:00

Soo I have been completely busy with there for almost 3 weeks..
My mom won't stop calling me and it's getting super annoying.. and she won't stop complaining that I don't pick up her calls and answer her text..
1. I'm busy.
2. I don't want her telling my uncles and aunts that I always pick up her calls and answer her text.
3. I don't want my uncles and aunts to say that I'm a spoiled child who can't live without my parents.

I have a life too and it's like she doesn't understand that I'm a busy student.. Even now as I'm typing on this blog, I'm also finishing my slide show assignment.. urgghhh... anyways I'm going to turn this around and make it a positive situation :)

My cousin's wedding is coming up next week and I'm going to go to Negeri Sembilan on the 16th and become her photographer again.. >_>
and then on the 23rd or 24th of Dec I'm going to go back to Subang Jaya with Dzul and Syafiq.. :)

Reason why University life rocks :
1. There are no parents to boss you around.
I'll think of others as I post more :)

Loves from,
Amy Ramli

I'm Surviving on My Own

2011-12-09T11:59:00.001+08:00

I've been in UiTM for almost a month now.. Not even once have I ever said I want to go home.. So, IN YOUR FACE! Those people who said I can't live a week without my parents.. I'm not missing anyone here.. I have friends who support me and help me.. Alhamdulillah..

I'm surviving here and even if you can't see, I'm flipping my middle finger to you assholes/bitches who said I won't survive.. soo FUCK YOU!

University Life ROCKS!

Amy Ramli

Intrigued

2011-11-02T11:56:00.002+08:00

Well, I found out about this person, Aarinfantasy and I'm intrigued to find out who he/she is.. I mean, for a person to sub a whole lot of anime.. You've got to admire them right?

I admire this person and would like to meet this person some day.. Just to know what it's like to converse with them and find out more about them..

This person must be able to speak japanese very well as he/she can sub animes.. And not to mention, my japanese is not good.. Being this person's friend would be amazing! I wish I can be his/her friend it would soo awesome! and I get to have someone to practice my japanese with.. :)

To: Aarinfantasy.

Will you be my friend? :D

Jikai made ne,

Amy Ramli

A Restless Night

2011-10-17T14:17:00.004+08:00

Last night, Was painful, restless and filled with thoughts..

My body was tired and my legs couldn't stand anymore, I decided to just lay on my bed and turn in early at 10pm..

When I rested and close my eyes, my eyelids popped open immediately.. I tossed and turned.. I still can't sleep.. The leaking water from my air conditioner makes it worse..

Soo I looked up in the ceiling and think.. My thoughts were coming in soo quickly that the ceiling became a huge whiteboard and with my thoughts written on it..

One was an anime..

A few were about the possibilities of things I'm going to face in UiTM..

Some were about things that are going to happen in the future..

Most.. and the most painful... Was about her.. Yes, I admit, its like I'm obsessed with her..

But to be honest, I don't give a damn..

I've known her for 6 years..
We were best friends..
I care about her..
She's my onee-san..
She's my partner in crime
She's like my shopping buddy!
She got a new bf.. which was the guy she fell in love with and smiled about all this while..
She even told me I was the only one she can be herself with (rude, crazy and completely at ease)<--- A sad fact but hey, I was proud to be that kind of friend..
She knows a lot of my secrets as much as I know hers..
I know her past and I try to get her past all that.. I want her to be happy and move on with someone else...
If her being happy means I'm dead to her.. I guess that means I'm officially no longer part of her existence..
I wonder why a lot of people are ignoring me..
I wonder how is she..

Holy Shit! I do sound like I'm obsessed with her.. Oh god, please don't let me turn into that psycho from The Roommate.. I'm going to stop now before I do turn into a psycho...

Off, Now!

Amy Ramli

A few lines

2011-10-17T13:47:00.002+08:00

A few lines more..
Just a few more lines,
I try to say just a bit more,
And nothing can withhold my cries..

I sang and played on the piano,
I try to sing with the right melody,
Trying to drown my sorrows,
And say nothing is wrong with me..

A friend she once was,
One that I cherish,
One that I love of course,
Now that fact has vanished..

Maybe it is destined we part ways,
Though I've never expect it to end like this,
All because of things I've said,
Our friendship turns havoc in a twist..

A friend you were to me,
A friend you shall remain,
Im always here for you if you need me,
I'll be waiting for the time I've become your friend again..

Time has called me
And I shall go
Even if this time
My part is filled with sorrow

Painful as it is
Hard for me to admit
The fact is and remains
I don't hate you but myself in exchange..

Toodles,

Amy Ramli

Hope

2011-10-12T14:18:00.002+08:00

I'm going to be leaving soon on 16th Nov 2011,

I know you're still angry.. but I'm still going to hope, that you will at least contact me before I go...

Im still your friend, but I'm not sure whether I am to your eyes..

So listen, thanks for your accounts book.. It's help me a bit along with his tutoring...

Soo, thank you.... And I hope I'll be hearing from you again soon..

Hope lingers,

Amy Ramli

Not giving up yet

2011-10-09T01:38:00.001+08:00

I may not look or act like much.. But I've been through a lot.. :) Things I'm glad I've gone through.. Things that scare the crap out of me.. And things that involve life changing decisions.. I've lost friends, I've made friends.. Some have come up to me and said.. "Owh, Amy... You haven't changed a single bit haven't you?" Some said "You've grown haven't you? No more cries and tears.." Some even said.. "Fuck woman! You've fucking changed! I don't fucking know you anymore!"

Everyone has their perceptions about me.. I can only say this.. What you think about me from the past and how you compare it to me now... Doesn't matter..

Humanschange with time, its either we grow mature or lose some maturity orhave learned to live life with reality..

Some might say, "YesI've changed.. Some might say "No, you've changed.."

Notall of us stay the same.. Everyone changed if not a lot, a little..
That's life :)

Thats exactly what I wrote to a friend when she posted howdisappointed she was when she saw her friend being different and not beingthe same as the past.. I guess, When I told her that, She just kept her headdown..

I've been fuming about this certainfriend.. At least I claim her to be my friend,, Don't know her story.. She has been ignoring me recently for something I did.. I can't sayI'm not upset.. Because unfortunately I am.. I've apologized countless times..I've been thinking.. Calling her names is one of the things that kept me on thespot where I am.. As her friend.. I don't know.. I guess, its time for me tostep down? But 6 years down the drain... That is just wasted... I'm not giving up yet.. I'm going to try be there for her when she needs me.. Thats what a best friend does...

Amy Ramli,

Signing Off..

When You Smile, I'm Happy

2011-10-03T01:06:00.003+08:00

I haven't seen a friend of mine looking soohappy in a very, very long time. And now when I finally see her smile after aalmost a year.. I'm relieved.. I want her to forget that bastard that ruinedher... Unfortunately, it's not that easy... She won't forget him that easily..As they all know.. First loves are never easy to forget..

Now, when I saw her call a guy who seems tolike her a lot.. She won't stop smiling and laughing.. I'm glad.. She finallydecides to move on.. I'm happy... Let's just hope it won't end up like herprevious relationships.. I’m praying for you.. Also, If this guy breaks yourheart again.. He is as dead as a slaughtered human :)

When I saw you smile genuinely.. I smiled and thank god that you have moved on..
And I pray that this time, you won't break your heart once more.. ♥

Love,

-Amy Ramli-

Getting it Out

2011-09-29T00:46:00.001+08:00

I want to cry.. But I can't.. Not because I don't want to.. Because I literally can't.. I can't get any tears out... =.=" I seem to be in some sort of dilemma because..
Today, I went to the country club(under force by parents) and when I swam.. I kept on swimming.. Thoughts flow through my head.. Everything I've been thinking of.. I stopped after a while..
I met my swimming instructor after that.. He said he's been watching me.. He asked if I was okay.. I was confused.. He pointed at my hands.. I lift them up to see they're all wrinkly..
He asked if I was okay because, normally I won't even do one lap out of laziness.. Then, after almost a year, I came back and do a full 8 laps.. He was worried I might pass out... I didn't even realise that.. I look at my phone.. I've been in the water for almost 2 hours...
I drove home and try to understand whats going on with me...
When I finally got on the laptop.. I want to try speaking to my friends.. All I could get out about the topic was.. "I went swimming today.. Thats all :) "and then... nothing.. I want to cry soo hard right now.. But I can't...

-Amy Ramli

Too Harsh?

2011-09-18T14:03:00.000+08:00

I'm thinking of the future... I may say that but sometimes what we say is not exactly what is going to happen..
What I said in my status was.. I'm not going to throw away everything for love... I'm thinking to the future.. I won't drop out of work for love, I won't decline a promotion for love, and I definitely won't stop studying for love...
Love is supposed to help u make up your mind.. But if it leads to destruction of the future.. No thank you.. :/

Love, is not an excuse to fail or not succeed,
It's an excuse to work harder and be proud

I have spoken,

AmyRamli

When The Heart Speaks

2011-09-06T23:02:00.000+08:00

One of life's disappointments is when you realise, you love someone who can never love you back..
Perhaps it's time to move on.. But for some reason to learn to fall is easy..
but to get up and move on will take a life time..
Girls, when your heart says maybe he's the one.. wait a while longer.. He might just turn around and leave...
Boys, learn to love sincerely and NEVER, EVER cheat.. It may seem like its nothing.. remember karma? It happens..

Sincerely,

My heart..

Amy Ramli

Life quotes

2011-09-06T11:19:00.001+08:00

Soo I found these in tumblrs.. they're pretty good :)

Amy Ramli

To Let Go

2011-09-06T11:08:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, you have to let go what you love most.. to achieve/get something greater.. A small price to pay... A broken heart filled with regret and loneliness.. But we have to sacrifice...

Amy Ramli ♥

Is He Sad?

2011-08-28T01:55:00.002+08:00

Hurm,
After i got my results, I immediately called mommy and daddy..
They were shocked! And congratulate me :)
After that, I called Mon Amour.. which he didn't pick >w< and I saw his brother on9 and asked him to wake him up.. (if this wasn't an important news he would have killed me for doing that XD)
Anyways, bro 2 told me that he wants me to call his phone.. I did and he told me he just woke up.. (Duhh, that was easy to anticipate xD) anyways..

When I told him the news, he was like.. "Owh.. (silence for 2 secs) OMG! Congrats!" I was listening the whole time, and I couldn't help but suspect that he's sad that I'm leaving... :/
Is that true?
What does that mean? :/

Confused and Still Trying to Figure It Out

Amy Ramli

Acceptance to UiTM Segamat, Johor

2011-08-26T01:05:00.002+08:00

OMG! SOO HAPPY!!!
I was doing my chores-torture-...
CHORES LIST
Wash Clothes
Rinse

Give food to Meow

-Shower-Clean Meow's wound
Take out the trash
Throw out Meow's poo

I was just about to Hang Clothes when....

*Tuut tuut... tuut tutt...* My phone SMS tone went on..
It was from UiTM.. asking me to check my results for acceptance because it's already out..

My mom was already asking me to hang the clothes soo I went and do that first..
Later, I went straight to the iMac downstairs and immediately checked on the UiTM page..

OMG!! I got accepted!! :O
To UiTM Segamat, Johor in the Business Studies course..
It's not my first choice, which was Computer Science or IT
but what the hell? It's my 2nd choice and I can live with that :D

It's far isn't it from Subang Jaya? But I don't care! I want to continue studying :)

I'm OUTIE!
Amy Ramli

2011-07-26T09:46:00.003+08:00

OMFG!
I couldn't stop myself last night!
WTF?
I said Aishiteru to him!
WTF?

FML!!!!!!!!!!
Jst the previous post I said I'm afraid of saying those words to him..
Am I a hypocrite?
Why the hell did i say that to him?
And we were having a great convo!!
Stupid Stupid Stupid!!!!!
Bangs head on the wall
Urgghhh!!!

I have to learn to control my emotions!

Pokes head and point to heart
You two remember that!

Well, looks like whats done is done..

I'm outie!,
Amy Ramli

The Talk

2011-07-25T10:31:00.005+08:00

I've been thinking..

Yesterday, 24th July, Xeon was starting 'The Talk' .. When he started the words..
Lately, I just messed them up.. Just trying to mess up the convo so that it won't go anywhere..

In the end, I mess things up again..
Because, I want to..
I'm afraid..
Of falling too hard again...Of getting hurt again..
Of loving too much again...

After an argument and a debate with Dee and Nee-chan.. They said I should give him a chance..

The future can't be seen nor controlled.. All we can do is plan, and hope for the best..
Every girl always fall too hard for a guy.. Thats why we get hurt.. It's always been like that..
You can't keep hiding/avoiding him forever! Sooner or later you WILL have 'The Talk' .... Stop being a coward and just listen to him!

Words can't describe how much these words actually affected my sleep last night... But I thought about it... I have been avoiding 'The Talk' ever since I got hurt.. Actually I told them that I'm fine with whatever this is.. This form of relationship that says we're not dating but we're talking on the phone everyday.. We comfort each other in times of sadness.. We go out together.. I'm fine with this.. I just don't want this to fall to the ground...

But they're right.. I have to face this one day..

Here I go!

Amy Ramli

Love's Irony

2011-07-14T10:29:00.002+08:00

The truth about humans feelings
Amy Ramli

It Just Felt Right

2011-07-12T22:11:00.004+08:00

Soo, last friday, 8th of July 2011
I went out with my ex..
yes, we still talk and hang out :)
Thing is,
He asked me out 3 times b4..
Once the night of his birthday.. Which I thought he was joking..
2nd time was when my maid ran away.. (obviously not a good time)
and last wednesday, he asked me out coz he had some free time.. xD

All three times i declined.. Reasons are just simple..

1. I thought he was joking
2. My maid ran away
3. The cleaners were supposed to come (and they didn't)

Soo pretty much on thursday I felt guilty..
I've never turned down that much invitations..

Soo I called him up and asked him out..
Surprisingly he said yes.. :)

And after I end the phone call, I freaked out..
The words just slipped through my mind..
Asking him out and such.. Really it's like my mouth had a mind of her own.. And pretty much I called out 8 people and a percentage of 100% said "Yes! Go!"
Next day, I went out with my girlfriend to buy the tickets,
Once I got back, I had to do loads of stuff
and then he called.. I checked my phone, 4 missed calls from Mon Amour..

*Panicking!*
Stepped out of the house after saying goodbye to mom and breathe in deep
What is it that I'm freaking out for?

^ That much u know I'm really nervous..
Why?
I don't know...
I reached his car and we just started talking in the car and it feels just right :)

When we reached the cinema, the place is already filled and... we were kinda late.. xD

But thank god the advertisements were still on at the time.. :D

TRANSFORMERS IS AWESOME!!! -nuff said-

When I got out of the cinema, my migraines kicked in..
"Must be coz of the not enough sleep" Sighs...
He led me outside :)
And then I was kinda hungry (I'm definitely not going to lie to my own blog :p) We just wandered around till we found the food services place.. and then I was like.. "Hey! its Friday right? Pizza Hut has this half price thing"
He nods and we go :D!

He paid for it! :D

After that, i just decided to go downstairs to this RM5 japanese shop.. It was awesome! ANd y'know whats the funny thing? HE never knew the shop existed.. and its soo funny the way he Jakun'ed on everything the shop..
I kept smiling xD

Soo, time to go home.. xD..
It was actually soo great! Thing is.. I keep thinking theres this girl he's been texting..
I was curious but everytime I got close to his phone.. I decided not to look..
Why? I honestly don't know..
But other than that.. It was just right... There were 2 other couples in the elevator and when they left, I just felt nervous..
and then i changed sides... and then... Its our parking level.. XD I keep asking him if he's paid the ticket.. completely forgetting that he paid using Touch'N'Go.. xD

And then he sent me home.. :3

It Just Felt Sooo Right... :)

Amy Ramli
It felt Right

I should've kissed him
I love you mohamad fahmi ezzuddin! <3

She Ran Away From Home

2011-07-02T01:37:00.005+08:00

My maid, who have been working for my family..
For 4 years.. left my house this morning..
I woke up at 9 am to my mom's screaming..
Calling my maid several times and accusing her of leaving without permission again..
Ironically, she did.. This time not returning..

I'll rewind this to about a month and and a half ago..

My mom decided to bring me, my bro and sis out for lunch.. Since my dad is not around.. my mom always use the money in her private savings (AKA leftovers from fees, grocery shopping oversupply and bills that my dad let her keep..) and before she left the house, she left her money in her book.. And when we got back from lunch.. She opened up her book and it was gone.. And my maid, is the only one.. in the house... My mom starts accusing her.. I, on the other hand was thinking maybe my mom misplaced it.. But I never opened up that topic because I know my mom is going to accuse me of taking my maid's side.. And honestly, I'm also kind of suspecting that it was her.. Ever since then, whenever my mom leaves the house.. She locks up her room... And awkwardness seeps around the family... My sis and bro tries to lighten up the mood and slowly the awkwardness fades away... Soo, basically we returned to normal.. except for the locked doors thing..

Okay now I'm going to rewind/fast forward this to 3 weeks ago..

My maid left home to pick up my bro and sis from their tuition centre at 8.30.. Then, at 9.15pm My mom received a call from my sister who is calling from the centre asking who is going to pick them up because my maid is not there.. My mom already got upset because my maid left at 8.30 and all these while assuming that my maid was waiting for my bro and sis.. Soo, I got up from my seat on the sofa and picked up the car keys to go pick 'em up.. As I was bout to leave, I realized my dad's car is outside.. I already realized that this means trouble... My dad is back and I couldn't convince him to let me pick up my brother and sister.. And off he goes.. in 15 mins.. they were back and my maid had a solemn face pasted on her.. Once she reached the front door, she immediately went to her room... I asked my bro and sis what happened.. They explained quickly that my dad picked them up and saw my maid with her friend and loudly asked her to get in the car.. My maid looked scared when she got into the car.. My dad immediately scolded her and banned her from going out ever until her permit expires when she can go home... (Her permit is expiring a month and a half from today.)

Ever since then, whenever I'm going out, I asked her to come with me.. I felt sorry for her.. She's human...

But then, today, 1st July 2011, Saturday

I woke up at 9 am to my mom's screaming..
Calling my maid several times and accusing her of leaving without permission again..
Ironically, she did.. This time not returning..

She left a note..

Assalamualaikum Bu,
Saya minta maaf Bu.. Saya tak boleh duduk sini Bu.. Tak boleh jumpa kawan.. Tak boleh jalan-jalan.. Pa' juga sudah marahi saya.. Saya pergi dgn adik saya.. Maafkan saya ya Bu' dan Pa'...

My mom called my dad.. and they both fought and as usual accusing each other of doing things wrong.. and then my mom says we all have to clean up our bedrooms and help her.. And I had to skip breakfast because as soon as I finished showering, we left for the police station to lodge a report and after that we went to the immigration office.. and only then I can eat.. My bro, who has been "the closest" to my maid is acting like.. I dunno how to describe it... And I snapped him out of it.. Coz we have a lot in our hands right now.. And I dun need anyone to mope around.. I do need someone to mop around though (pun intended).. My mom broke down in the restaurant and crying in the car.. I pretty much just can't let her drive anymore.. I end up saying "Mom! Stop it! We're here, Nobody's dead and we can help.." Once we reached home, I made sure everyone is okay and I sat downstairs and just sit quietly thinking.. And then it was time to send them to tuition.. But my mom says she's going to go so I let her.. at 8pm my dad called me and asked me to put a different lock on the gates at the back since my maid took the back way to leave.. and left with the keys earlier.. We were afraid she or her companion might duplicate it and attempt to enter the house.. It took such a long time! at 9 my mom asked me to accompany her to pick my bro and sis.. I went.. And after that, no one once spoke of my maid..

I know you all must think I must be heartless because everyone is so sad that my maid is gone.. I'm the person with heart of stone.. Thats not true.. Here's my side..

After we got back from the Immigration Office and lunch, I prayed and then I took a nap from 2pm till 4.30pm.. Then, my cousin sent me a text and I called her.. I cried.. after a month of not crying.. I cried.. Because, I'm close to her too, she's like part of the family now.. And I can't cry in front of everyone because I'll seem weak... I went into her room and realized that she took everything that belongs to her only... Everything that we gave her as a gift, everything we bought for her, she left it here.. It's like she doesn't want to remember us anymore... I gave her, my pink mirror and comb set because I know she'll like it.. and she left it.. TT__TT
Just now, at 11 pm I realized that the my com place is messy and I decide to wash the dishes and cups i washed.. and then, I saw the cup i used last night before I went to bed.. I cried again...I knew, she washed the cups before she left.. She did her last chore before she left in the morning.. And the last person who saw her this morning was my brother..
If only I woke up early and sat down here.. I would have been able to stop her... In fact I'm crying right now...

Aunty Kurnia, balik la..kitorang tak nak aunty pergi.. Let us return you the way you came.. We'll send you to the airport and see you fly off.. Please return home, :(

Please.. I miss talking to you....

Amy Ramli,
Signing off

ARGGGHHHH~!!!

2011-05-31T16:49:00.003+08:00

Okay, first I went shopping TODAY instead of next week because i feel like it...
NOW I FUCKING REGRET IT!!
2nd phone stolen!
FUCK!
You knw whats funny?
The person who stole my phone is a woman!
why? because it's in a woman's fitting room!
im pissed off now!
MAY YOU DIE A HORRIBLE DEATH!

Yeap.. it happened..

2011-05-11T02:49:00.002+08:00

All these times.. when you say the words "I need a break.." out of nowhere.. Somethings gonna happen..

I never knew b4.. but after 2 and half years... recently on the 8th of May 2011..
I knew, even though u didn't mean it.. it means someday soon, we're going to break up..
Almost everytime you say those words.. miscommunication happens.. or we communicate less..

Honestly.. Those words are like a signal..

I asked because.. I wanted to fix things..
One SMS was all it took to know the answer..
"Question: R we breaking up?"
and then answered with a phone call..
Him: Hey..
Me: yaww...
-Talking bout random stuff- then....
Me: hey bout my text last night.. Whats the answer?"
Him: *Sudden silence* I'm going to be frank, I..
Me: Owh..stop it.. I just need an answer.. I'm sick of people twisting their words around.. It's bullshit..
Him: Okay, simple enough.. I'm going to say yes..
Me: .......
Him: You okay?
Me: Yea everythings okay... Wasn't that hard right? *I didn't know what to feel..*
Him :Yea.. Yr right..
Him: I need to focus on my studies on this final semester.. There's another reason but I'll tell you when the time is right.. *I'm quiet coz I was thinking of what was going on..
Me: Okay.. no prob.. Hey.. -talks bout more random stuff-
Me: Hey, I have to go..
Hangs up

Now, I think I'm sad.. I can't cry anymore...

I don't want to either..
Amy Ramli
still loves mohamad fahmi ezzuddin

What the hell is going on?

2011-05-03T23:03:00.003+08:00

Theres a voice in me.. that keeps saying... Break it up! Break it up! Break it up! Break it up! Break it up! BREAK UP! I'm not listening.. not yet... Show me the meaning of someone loving me.. because I sure don't feel like it... Maybe I don't know where you are right now in this relationship.. Tell me.. thats all i need to know... :(

What the hell is going on with us?

I don't know...
Amy Ramli<3mfe

I'm Confused

2011-04-14T23:03:00.002+08:00

I love you?
Or I don't?
Or maybe I'm afraid to love you whole-heartedly?

Because of the sooo many times we've been together
You're the one who keeps breaking my heart...

Yesterday, on Wednesday 13/4/2010
I went to the movies alone for the first time.. and it felt great.. Though I wish u were next to me..
Then, I went to the normal dvd shop I always go to... and theres this guy.. He knows me and he acts like he likes me.. a lot! He started flirting with me... and I keep laughing to everything he said.. and then I realized I'm flirting back at him...
Then, he asked me whether I have a a boyfriend.. I automatically say no..
What just happened... he looked happy.. and started talking to me... and bla bla bla... And I think... just think... I might like him too? I know its just like coz I still love HIM...
This is confusing.. I vowed to stay loyal and not cheat on anyone anymore.. But in a way.. this seems like cheating...

I have experience in this field.. -love- but I know.. nobody know the definition of love... and im pretty sure all of us have problems at this particular subject...

Help me out!

The Confused,
Amy Ramli

Pain in Discovery

2011-03-25T15:46:00.002+08:00

Hey, whats that?
*bends down to pick up something*
Ouch! *drops object*
Object fell to the floor and blood oozing out *Breathes Deeply*

Once upon a time,
When pain comes,
I have my mom or dad's hug,
and their attention

But now years have passed through
I sit alone on the floor and try to find something to stop my bleedin'
I soo wish my parents are here too
To say its alright

But since that day had passed..
That day when my results came out..
Silence can say disapproval..
I can feel their hate just behind my back..

*sighs* I'm sorry..
Now I just watch my blood ooze out and let it be...
Coz I know that nothing is much more painful than rejection from yr family~

Amy Ramli

Daddy's Day

2011-03-09T21:01:00.002+08:00

Her hair was up in a ponytail
Her favorite dress tied with a bow
Today was Daddy's Day at school
And she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her,
That she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
If she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid;
She knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
Of why he wasn't there today.
But still her mother worried,
For her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
She tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school,
Eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees,
A dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back,
For everyone to meet
Children squirming impatently,
Anxious in their seats.
One by one the teacher called,
Each student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
As seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name,
Every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
For a man who wasn't there.
"Where's her daddy at?"
She heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one"
Another student dared to shout.
And from somewhere near the back,
She heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
Too busy to waste his day."
The words did not offened her,
As she smiled up at her mom.
And looked back at her teacher,
Who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back,
Slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child,
Came words incredibly unique.
"My daddy couldn't be here,
Because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
Since this is such a special day.
And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy,
And how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories
He taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
And taught me to fly a kite.
We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him,
I'm not standing here alone.
Cause my daddy's always with me
Even though we are apart.
I know because he told me,
He'll forever be in my heart."
With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
Beneath her favorite dress.
And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
Her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
Who was wise beyond her years.
For she stood up for the love
Of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her,
Doing what was right.
And when she dropped her hand back down,
Staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
But its message clear and loud.
"I love my daddy very much,
He's my shining star.
And if he could he'd be here,
But heaven's just too far.
You see he was a fireman
And died just this past year.
When airplanes hit the towers
And taught Americans to fear.
But sometimes when I close my eyes,
It's like he never went away."
And then she closes her eyes,
And saw him there that day.
And to her mother's amazement,
She witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children,
All starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they say before them,
Who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second,
They saw him at her side.
"I know you're with me Daddy."
To the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
Of those once filled with doubt.
Not one in that room could explain it,
For each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her,
Was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
By the love of her shining bright star.
And given the gift of believing,
That heaven is never too far

I do not own this nor do I write this.. I just saw it in the internet and thought it would be nice to publish it in my blog..

Amy Ramli
Deeply touched

Opinions of Religious Ways

2011-02-17T10:10:00.004+08:00

Lets see... In my undestanding of seeing religion is that people have different opinions... Some have the right ones... Some with the wrong ones.. But we are all given to believe what we believe in.... For example Valentines Day...

Valentines Day

I had a fight with a friend over this particular matter.. About celebrating it.. Yes... religious fight... and yes.. I know its wrong to celebrating it in Islam.. True it is... But in my opinion its no harm WISHING IT to others who do celebrate it.. example the christians, the buddhists, the hindus not forgetting the atheists...

Listen up, To me, wishing Happy Valentine's Day to others is the same as wishing Merry Christmas, Gong Xi Fa Cai, Cap Goh Mei, Have a Great Thaipussam Celebration, Happy Deepavali and others to other people... I mean, theres nothing wrong with it.. Why is it an issue now?

Why do you want to turn our religion against our own religion principle that says

"You do not make fun nor hate other religions or culture just because it is different from ours.. You do not have war with other countries unless they started it first and you want to defend our religion and country (jihad)... "

Our country is multicultural and we don't celebrate their holidays and religious celebration.. It's fine just to wish it to them...
Its okay if you want to say its wrong to your understanding.. But those lines, sentence, words that you said.. Have to be soft, considerate and careful... We all have free minds in this world.. But it takes KIND WORDS and CAREFUL sentences to set it right...

That is my statement of defense
Amy Ramli
comments? NONE HARSH I HOPE....

You're on your own now

2011-01-29T23:51:00.001+08:00

Sometimes things aren't always what they seem,
Sometimes smiles aren't always genuine,
Sometimes love aren't always true,
But you just don't know whats in it for you.. Ooohh~
If I let you know how hurt I really am,
I doubt anyone would actually mind,
It hurts soo much right now
My heart is broken yet i can only utter a silent ouch
Coz really.. I know nobody knows how to care...

Yr on yr own now~

Wounded
Amy Ramli<3mfe

January 2011

2011-01-08T11:43:00.003+08:00

Well, I missed the new year blog post..
Not my fault I was hanging out with one of my bff from Australia, Jazz and her cutie pie sis Mal...

29th Dec 2010 - 1st Jan 2011

Though Fun times happen..

I'm disappointed with their behaviors in public
Far more disappointed in them for not considering my feelings and others who hang out with them.
I mean, okay.. Siblings fights..
Who doesn't?
BUT, they should at least tone it down when several people are around..
I myself don't know who I'm more disappointed on..
The younger sister or my bestie..

When they fight, I try to get out of the way or get a few feet away..

When they fight, hell breaks loose..
To Jazz, Mal annoys her to death..
To Mal, Jazz is too sensitive to poke around with...

I understand whoever walks as much as I do and not use to it..
Can get cramps, feet ache and etc..

However, it doesn't give you the permission to shout to each other in public...

Disappointment is pretty much the way to say it..

KLCC TRIP

SAD PART

My friend who is with us at the mo..
Looks at Jazz in somehow curious and pity look..
but voiced out her opinion otherwise..
She's rather cranky.. Having pms?
I look at her and apologized for their behavior..

She said it was fine..
But it was obvious..
Damage has been done..
I smiled apologetically and head over to my bff who is sitting on the bench with her hands on her face.. *sighs* crying...

I hugged her, assured her that it's alright.. And asked her to tell me the truth and tell me whats wrong
She told me she didn't want to go to KLCC and didn't want me to be upset... And her feet hurts like hell and she needs to go home..

FUN PART

Went to Isetan and have a look at big sized stylish shoes.. TOTAL AWESOMENESS!!!
I otw out, I saw this totally TALL but HOTT woman..
I feel sooo short next to her.. darn.. xD
Next, we all went to the cinema to watch.. 'The Tourist' It was the premiere on that day... So pretty much its full.. :D

We got the tickets anyway. Thing is, after jazz's feet ache.. We decide not to go.. but owh well... the fun part is... I kinda gave the tickets for free xD.. That was fun! :D

SUMMIT Trip
That was fun as well... It was new year's eve and we went to summit to shop.. But we didn't do much.. Bowling with MFE and them... I shopped for a T-shirt for My Baby Sis and a belt for My Bro.. thats bout it.. They bought shoes, tights and etc.. XD
Then we went for KFC and such Then we bought loads of DVDs! omg!! xD

SUBANG PARADE Trip

It's on a Saturday
You know what that means.... FLEA MARKET!!!!!! OMG!!!!!
Yes, omg bcoz I bought loads of necklaces, earrings and bracelets.. all for a total of under RM50 im like!!(I bought like 3 necklaces, 4 earrings and 2 bracelets) WOAH!!! :D
TOTAL AWESOMENESS FOR A SHOPAHOLIC LIKE ME!!!!

They shopped for bags, earrings, necklaces, shirts and other stuff.. Way more.. and they're going again there with theor dad the next day... I'm like... WOOHOOO!!! Thats it for now...

Truth is, I never hate them,
They just made me uncomfortable
But fun times replaced those bitter memories
I love them both..

Total Loves from
Amy Ramli

It's Over

2010-12-15T23:35:00.002+08:00

Yep.. That's right..
My SPM is Over...
EST last paper and I answered it..
Time to relax?
As I said in my previous post..
I'm playing maid.. GRRR.......

UNHAPPY
STRESSED AFTER SPM
Unhappiness...

Gahh!!! Im pissed at my maid... At my dad for not getting a new maid.. Im pissed at my life... :(

Owh well, that aside..
Im in love... xD
I want you back in my life you know.. except this time I want you to say it... :)

Pissed but In Love
Amy Ramli<3mfe

MAID CRISIS

2010-12-15T21:37:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, our maid called from Indonesia.. Saying that she can't get through the airport as her passport and permit were held back....

Now get this, FUCK YOU INDONESIANS ASSHOLES WHO DETAINED MY MAID!
Do you get that? no?
You fucking bastards! We want our maid back! She is by any means illegal to leave the country while having our contract! She leaves.. We can go get her back! You understand?!
Im keeping my promise on getting her back if she doesn't come back...

My friends, get time off during SPM break...
Me? I have to work my ass off..

My dad thinks its funny.. The only relaxation I get after SPM is from studying..
Its a way for me to lose weight????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want our maid back.... Im tired of throwing out the trash and cleaning toilets!
My mom is not strong enough to do a lot of work like other mothers out there!!!
I need a maid, cheap, and fast!!!!

The Frustrated and EXTREMELY Annoyed
Amy Ramli<3mfe

It's been a while

2010-10-22T13:55:00.007+08:00

I haven't been here for a while..
BIG reason there...
SPM is coming up and pretty much since I found that out.. Nthg in my life is interesting enough to type or I just never had the time to type it down..

Any ways Now I had some time to type... Im at Didi's house and... Well I manage to get to her laptop.. :)

A simple poem..
I shall type..
To make up all those times..
On blogger I have not abide...

A Rose of Hope

Time, and time
It shan't be repeated..
Put those times you have left behind you
And begin anew..
Sometimes,
You think your life is at the end..
But when someone gave you a rose of hope
Your eyes shine, Your heart blooms
You smile and appreciate
And thank god for this blessing..
and again, you begin anew..
We won't stop making mistakes,
But then its how we learn..
A Rose of Hope is what we all need
When time slows down at a tragedy..
Begin anew.. With A Rose Of Hope

Love,
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Some Pics I found on Photobucket

2010-07-01T20:22:00.004+08:00

Amy Ramli<3mfe

A letter I wrote...

2010-06-29T22:58:00.002+08:00

Dear MFE,

MFE, 私はここに言っていること私はあなたを愛して...そして、私はいつもされます...私はあなたが...のように私の心を壊した信じることができないわかんない...これは痛い...私の心が痛い...しかし...私はあなたを...愛して神は、私はあなたが多くの楽しみを愛する...しかし、私はどのように..それを表現するのか分からないそして、私は間違って...それを表現するそして、それはなぜあなたは私と別れたの...私はあなたを憎むが、私はあなたを愛して...

Here's how you read it...

MFE, watashi wa koko ni itte iru koto watashi wa anata o aishite... Soshite, watashi wa itsumo sa re masu... Watashi wa anata ga... No yō ni watashi no kokoro o kowashi ta shinjiru koto ga deki nai Wakan nai... Kore wa itai... Watashi no kokoro ga itai... Shikashi... Watashi wa anata o... Aishite Kami wa, watashi wa anata ga ōku no tanoshimi o aisuru... Shikashi, watashi wa dono yō ni.. Sore o hyōgen suru no ka wakara nai Soshite, watashi wa machigatte... Sore o hyōgen suru Soshite, sore wa naze anata wa watashi to wakare ta no... Watashi wa anata o nikumuga, watashi wa anata o aishite...

Straight from the Heart,
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Time will heal this... (I hope)

2010-06-27T11:02:00.002+08:00

Okay.. Let's get back to the reality of life shall we? I'm ready to admit that I have secrets that I am in denial with... Pathetic but it's true..

I'm obsessed with my ex bf.. mfe (y? coz i love him and he left me and he's the best guy I've ever been with..)
I like it when people give attention to me... I'm not kidding.. Umm vain perhaps? Though I'm still in denial over this.. Regretfully I have to agree it's true...
I have family problems that only certain people know...
I told people i played DOTA.. though I never did.. =.="
I have low self confidence..
Im scared of the future..
I want him back..
I laugh and smile.. To forget about my problems... But it never works....
I want to sing on stage.. I want to dance freely.. But I can't.. Because I'm scared of what people would think of a fat girl singing and dancing freely like nobody cares...
I hate my life coz it's already screwed up....

Pathetic
Amy Ramli<3mfe

A tag from Shana Shafiza

2010-06-25T23:48:00.004+08:00

Full Name:
Farah Amira bt. Mohd Ramli

Birthdate:
March 18^th 1993

Current Status:
Single & unavailable! ;)

What do you fear most?

Losing the people I love..

Drowning & getting burnt - which are you afraid of?

Getting burnt.. I swim.. I can’t drown

10 Phone Numbers You Remember:

013-2840580
014-9331533
999
1800-88-2525
03-80243886

(others are under wraps… are you crazy?)

10 Birthdates You Remember:
March 18^th 1993 (Amy&Jazzy)
June 27^th 1992 (♥mfe)
April 7^th 1993 (Teddy)
December 11^th 1993 (Galah)
December 10^th 1993 (Wawa)
September 2^nd 1994 (My bro!)
May 2^nd 1998 (Baby Sis!)
September 11^th 1965 (Mommy)
July 21^st 1959 (Daddy)
December 29^th 1992 (Akiko)
November 2^nd 1992 ( Shana Shafiza)

If you hit the jackpot - a trip to Mauritius Island & you can only bring 3 people along. Who will you choose?

Teddy, Nana & Jazzy

You're at a desert & you're fucking thirsty. You then found a golden teapot. You rubbed it & a genie came out. He'll grant you anything you wish for but only one. What will it be?

Take me home.. Where food and drinks are in the fridge.. xD

If you got a chance to swap into another family, whose family would you want to be in?

No idea xD

5 Prime Wishes You Really Wish To Be Granted:

10 A’s for SPM

Daddy to leave that TRAMP

Jazzy to be able to come to Malaysia at the end of the year… When I have time to spend with her.. And for her to stay for 2 months..

Date MFE again…

Win a million American Dollars

You're an expecting mother. Will you run the test to check on your baby's sex?

Sure why not? But surprises are very entertaining.. xD

If you got the chance to change your current name now, what would it be?

Nahh.. Loving my name now…

Do you support mix-marriage?

Why not… Marrying an Australian or a Chinese guy..

If you have a time-travelling machine, what will you do?

Stop the ‘thing’ from happening

Stop annoying people

Start studying back then

What's the time of your life?

Falling in Love

Do you really have your aim in life?

Getting 10 A’s for SPM

Finding a man who loves me for me and won’t hurt me (sorry mfe but you do hurt me)

I don’t know…

Your next tags?

I hv no idea who…

Answered by,
Amy Ramli<3mfe

100th post

2010-06-07T22:15:00.000+08:00

Damn.. Its been 2 years plus of me using blogger..
And only in year 2010 i get to my 100th post.. lolz..

Nevermind.. At least I reached 100 already.. :)

A bit cheered up..
Amy Ramli<3mfe

2010-06-07T22:12:00.000+08:00

I'm hurt and I normally call you for this type of situations.. I reached the phone and was about to call you... Then... I remembered... We're not.. that.. anymore... Tears fall down.. and I cry more... The pain... T.T

Amy Ramli<3mfe

The girl

2010-06-04T23:19:00.005+08:00

Trust me..

The girl who laughs her head off all the time in class..
IS the girl who cries to sleep every night....

The girls who tells her friends she is okay..
IS the girl who suffers indefinitely..

The girl who laughs and smiles and take pictures most of the time..
IS the girl who needs someone to comfort her at night..

The girl whom all thought is fine..
Is the one hiding a secret all this time...

The girl whom everyone assumed is always happy and never sad..
Wow, you're in for a big surprise..

Coz she's the girl who cries like hell..
She's the girl who suffers the most..
She's the girl.. Whom everyone thought is the complete opposite
She's the girl who hides her sadness and tears.. With her laughter and smiles..

Who's that girl?

me

You gotta go through life after all,
Amy Ramli<3mfe

I'm sorry

2010-05-30T13:43:00.002+08:00

I'm not ready to talk bout it yet...

Sighs...

Amy Ramli<3mfe

I tried it before.. .

2010-05-29T11:20:00.003+08:00

And I failed..
As u all can obviously see..
My scars are gone..
But the memory stayed in my heart..
How i struggled to breathe.. And the reason for it...
Is now forgotten..
Once in high school...
I deliberately changed myself..
For GOD, for my health..
For the sake of having a normal life...
Now I've almost forgotten the incident..

But with this current crisis..

I've been thinking about it...

again..

and again...

I've reached to the point of finally making the decision..

Until..

Teddy's face came to my mind... How she made me promised not to do so...

Then Jazz's voice kept repeating in my head bout how she loved me....

B's voice, harsh words and promises long time ago.. saying "If you kill yourself.. I will be following on soon after..."...

Akiko's face and her threats to kill me if I make anymore suicide attempts...

Saiyari's words that concern's bout me....

Everything came back! on how I shouldn't waste/lose my life over a bastard who can't stop himself from wanting to marry a bimbo that's 20 years younger than him..

You want a bimbo? You got one! One that will run your money out and not give u any children!

Look at me! I'm laughing at you right now!
But tears are still streaming down my cheeks

Suicide was in consideration..

But it's gone now...
I know you guys prayed for me..
Thank You...

Amy Ramli-Still dying-

You Bastard

2010-05-28T13:57:00.002+08:00

17 years of my life..

Just gone like that..
FUCK YOU!
Owh now.. I get it!!! ALL THOSE TIMES...
You went outstation.. It's probably going to that BITCH OF A WOMAN WHO STOLE YOU AWAY FROM OUR FAMILY!!!

You asshole.. You took my heart.. You squeezed it soo hard that it broke..
You MARRIED ANOTHER WOMAN!!!
I don't want to lose sleep over this..

I need help... let me die...

Migraine killing me..
Amy Ramli no chance to live... I hate life already.. You might as well kill me now..

I Want You To

2010-05-22T21:20:00.005+08:00

I want you to be here with me..

To dry my eyes and my cheeks..

I want you to kiss me..

I want you to hold me..

I want you to love as it is..

And feel like this is total bliss..

I want you to hug me tight

When I am totally not alright..

I want you to say that..

You Love Me..

Before those words..

Come out of me..

I say that I love you soo..

Sorry that I can't give you more..

But I think it's enough for proof..

To show that I'm soo in love with you..

Written on 22th of May 2010

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
I miss you
Amy Ramli<3mfe

What happened to me...

2010-05-20T19:17:00.003+08:00

And it's still happening...

Crying Alone with no one to comfort her anymore
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Isn't it obvious?

2010-05-20T19:08:00.000+08:00

World of Colours

2010-05-20T18:34:00.003+08:00

Pessimism must be taken off optimism
I'm going to stay in that state..
But it's not going to stop me from crying...
Just feeling a bit better..

Miss&Love
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Honest and straightforward

2010-05-18T19:11:00.001+08:00

Amy Ramli<3mfe

2010-05-18T17:06:00.006+08:00

Its really obvious now...

Hurm~
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Does he?

2010-05-18T15:27:00.005+08:00

Certain posts cause confusion,
Amy Ramli<3mfe

What Is and Whats Not LOVE

2010-04-21T19:49:00.003+08:00

Everything But Love.

What is love?

Are your palms sweaty,is your heart racing,and is your voice caught within your chest?
-It isnt love,its like.

You cant keep your eyes or hands off of them,am I right? -
Its isnt love,its lust.

Are you proud,and eager to show them off?
-It isnt love,its pride.

Do you want them because you know theyre there?
-It isnt love,its loneliness.

Are you there because its what everyone wants?
-It isnt love,its loyalty.

Are you there because they kissed you or held your hand?
-It isnt love,its low confidence.

Do you stay with them because of their confessions of love,because youre afraid to hurt them?
-It isnt love,its pity.

Do you belong to them because the sight of them makes your heart skip a beat?
-It isnt love,its infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
-It isnt love,its friendship.

Are you willing to give all your favourite things for their sake?

-It isnt love,its charity.

Does your heart ache & break when theyre sad?
-Then its love.

Do you cry for their pain? Even when theyre strong?
-Then its love.

Do their eyes see your true heart,and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
-Then its love.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain & relation pulls you close & hold you there?
-Then its love.

Do you accept their faults because theyre a part of who you are?
-Then its love.

Are you attracted to others,but stay with them faithfully without regret?
-Then its love.

Would you give them your heart,your life,your death?
Think before you say those 3 words :)

Amy Ramli<3stilllovinmfe

I Still Love You

2010-04-19T20:41:00.002+08:00

No matter what..
I always will
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Im single? I don't want to be.. Especially from you....

2010-04-19T18:06:00.006+08:00

This one thing you sent me.. is that a hidden message? You know.. When you said that you don't want me anymore... (Copied and pasted from Facebook.. Directly)

from your facebook message...

MFE: April 18 at 11:21pm

I guess it's time to come clean.i have to say this....

i'm sorry,but i think i had enough.I have to go on and i think so should you.so i say goodbye one Last time.......to you.

ps:don't need to reply or call because yoU know what to espect.Good bye

Is that true? If it is... urmm.. ILY2... If not... My mistake... go on.. stop loving me....

I still love you..
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Why Now?

2010-04-16T18:23:00.002+08:00

A secret message: If you like me, tell me... If you miss me, show it... If you love me, prove it.........

Not make me cry..
Tell me whats going on...
Before I really break down..

She Doesn't Know What She Did,
Till She Get That Tone On The Phone...
Stop Crying Amy!!! Seriously!
Amy Ramli doesn't know who love her anymore

Earth Hour 2010

2010-03-27T19:17:00.002+08:00

Im getting ready to play in the darkness!!! :)

Excited for Earth Hour
Amy Ramli<3mfe

What you see and thought may not be true

2010-03-27T17:25:00.002+08:00

When I heard bout her story.. I felt sorry.. I felt terrible.. but most of all.. I felt stupid for not expecting that something like that could happen...
She told me.. How life can change in a split second..
But she never complains...
When I heard her.. Her story...
I'm thankful she turned out alright..
With such friends...
That help and support her..

With their parents that helped her..
She's lucky..
But most of all...
She never lost faith..

I'm thankful that she's like that.. :)

Her story inspires me..

Maybe I should start accepting the "thing" and move on..

Touched by a real life story ,
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Keep it... I trust you....

2010-03-26T11:00:00.003+08:00

I dunno where we are right now.. What happened to the "I love you's" we used to say?

What happened to the cute and mysterious messages?
What happened to the constant messages we used to send?

Its not gone..
Its still there...
Just hidden...
br/>I'm sure I said this once.. I don't want to lose you...

I Love You....

Love Stays.. People go..
I'm not leaving.. AndI don't want you to leave either...
Amy Ramli<3mfe

When True Love Shows...

2010-03-10T18:48:00.006+08:00

One Of my Best Friends, Shana Shafiza will be getting engaged this Sunday, 14th of March 2010.. 4 days b4 my birthday.. xD at around 8.30 pm :)

Just 10 days after dating.. Their families decided to get them engaged... :)

Aren't they adorable?

They're getting engaged this Sunday!!! OMG OMG OMG!!! :)

Amy Is sooo happy for Shana Shafiza!!!
Amy Ramli<3mfe

FISH!!! Its March already??

2010-03-05T15:30:00.003+08:00

My bday is on the 18th...
SPM results is on the 11th.. damn..

Good Luck guys!!!

I want bday present on my bday!!!
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Love is Bliss

2010-03-02T22:17:00.003+08:00

When you remember our first date,
Its like totally bliss..

I can love u sooo much..
I remember every day in what had happened on our first date... Do You remember? That time in MPH... That other time at the movies.. *sighs* Hahaha! Phone!!! lolz... ;)

TOTALLY SWOOON ~♥♥♥♥♥♥
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Lipginity still sealed

2010-03-02T18:58:00.003+08:00

It still is sealed... sad right? I wanna lose it soon!!!! Mind u.. Its my lipginity.. How my lips have never touch anyone elses lips! Not the "V"

Some of my friends had lost it already.. Lolz.. Poor sara.. she lost it to michelle who accidentally took her first kiss away... xD

Anyways.. I feel soo left out considering that I have never kissed my previous boyfriends on the lips b4....

In love and hope it will last,
Amy Ramli<3mfe

My phone got lost during fourian

2010-02-25T18:21:00.002+08:00

This is a pic of my phone...
Today I lost my phone during the fourian run.. I need it back... a message to everyone from SMK USJ 4

Guys! Please pass this on.. :( I lost my phone today during fourian..... Please return it to me... To the person who took it... I locked the phone with a password.. Not the SIM card password but the Phone Password.... soo u can't open it after u turn it off... Its no use to u... Please give it back... there are very memorable messages and pictures there... I don't want to lose those.. and important phone numbers.... You don't have to come and see me to return it... just put it in my mailbox at no. 42, JLN USJ 4/4A... please return it to me.. :(

Heartbroken,
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Life is Dark

2010-02-24T18:11:00.004+08:00

Its DARK...
I don't like what I'm hearing... :(

NO.... :( Why????
I know you would be reading this.. If you have.. please call me.. :( i miss you... :( and now this... :(
Hurts soo bad....
Amy Ramli<3mfe

What I really feel

2010-02-21T18:01:00.004+08:00

I miss u bt u don't care..♫ Is it the end between us?♫ Coz from the way of what yr doing is like we’re over…♪

This is going to be an expressive post..

Okay.. Its already enough that my dad is doing it to my family... Nw you're giving me the impression that you're doing it to me...

Is it true?

Coz if it is..

There's no reason for me to love u anymore..
But the problem is.. I still do..

You are an idiot... But yr my idiot..