This Mask of Pain

I tried to find the reason why..
When I hear that song..
Tears crawl out of my eyes
I kept it in silence

I try to find it..
But the more I think of it..
The more I cry..
I'm screwed... I'm not myself..

I think bout Mon Amour.. Akiko... Red.. Teddy... Daddy... That BITCH he's dating... Mommy... Jazzy.. Furby-Chique... Just Life apparently... I feel Pained... I feel suffer.. All this.. I can't wake up like this.. because.. I hide myself.. Soo.. Happiness is a mask... I can be happy.. But I can also be fake happy...

Hmm... Movie Marathon?

Okay, Normally after the finals exams.. I would always.. Rest.. and Rest.. and rest..

Sadly I didn't do soo this year..

What did I do?
Yep.. My title gave it away..

MOVIE MARATHON!

The following are the list of movies I had watched for the past 2 1/2 weeks...

Sixth Sense
Pacifier
Clash Of The Titans
Phantom Of The Opera
Mr&Mrs Smith
Race To Witch Mountain
The Proposal
G.I. Joe
G-Force
Pirates of The Caribbean: The Curse Of The Black Pearl
Pirates Of The Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest
Pirates Of The Caribbean : At Worlds End

Next On My List:

Jackie Chan: The Medallion
Jackie Chan: Tuexedo
Van Helsing
National Treasure

Any more movies shall be written soon.. Lolz!

I'm doing this because I don't want to bother anyone.. Which makes me a couch potato.. And that is not good.. hmm... Owh well...

Is bored and Missing My BF..
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Smile and Admit You Miss Me

My title has nothing to do with anyone or anything.. I'm just bored.. sooo yea...

Today, 17th of November 2009..
Is the night before SPM & STPM starts.. Soo.. I'm taking this space of my blog.. To Wish ALL of you Form 5's and Form 6's

GOOD LUCK AND DO YOUR BEST!

Good Luck & Good NIght!
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Disappearance from Blog World

I haven't been on here for quite a while now... I was having Finals and was studying like crazy.. At least to me I was.. When I saw my results.. I felt the emo-ness in my soul reaching to break out.. I held it down till I was alone in my room...

Yes I'm human.. Lolz..

I cried like there was no end..
I have to apologize to my readers.. for not being here to post bout my life..

Not that it was interesting or fun.. Lolz..

Well.. Today I was deadbeat.. Not posting what I did.. Hha... One thing I can say.. Is that Today I realized.. That I missed him so much..

Why?
Today, 16th of November 2009, I went to school..
To help my ICT teacher, Pn Maizun in some stuff... Then while working hard there.. I remembered.. During one of the country's holidays.. We came together.. To school.. To help teacher in the lab too... At that time.. I was only assigned to clean.. Which I kind of not like doing at the time..

Because
He has to be on the other side.. And I'm on the other side..
But we did play around at the time.. Actually I did.. He was working lolz.. I like his phone.. I want his phone... DoPoD! =D..

='(

It makes me sad when I have to remember those memories..
When I'm missing him like crazy...

='(

Well.. Today.. Was the remainder of what happened at that time..
He was showing off his phone to me...=p I can't forget the time he showed off how his phone can take voice commands.. LOLZ! He said "Play all music.. Opps.." He forgot to turn on the voice command ... xD

I remembered.. When it's time for him to leave for his Friday prayers..
Pn. Maizun asked me to stay behind to help her for a while.. I remembered he looked up at me... Then he kind of waited (or hesitated to my eyes) outside the door.. I kind of want to go there.. But I couldn't.. Pn Mauzin was watching... I can only wave from a distance... He waved back and from the look of his face.. I can assume disappointment... And a sigh...

The Sad and Missing Her Heart,
Amy Ramli,3mfe

When Shoes Bite

When shoes bite,
Splinters grow...
Im just bored out of my mind here...

Gnite,
Amy Ramli<3mfe

Think

When I need you all..
You're not there..
But when you need me there..
You expect me to be there for you 24/7?

If this is really how you guys are acting..
I'm thinking rather rationally right now..
Why should I be there for you guys anymore..
I treat you guys with respect and what I got back is what a peasant get..

Ignored and left alone...
Whats that? I'm not grateful?
Listen to me.. Think back..
Was there a time when I did not answer all of your phone calls if it weren't of me being asleep?

Was there a time I said "Look woman, Im freakin busy now.. will you please leave me alone?"
Was there any time at all I said "Look! enough bout ur life!! Its my turn!"
Is there a time at all that I said.. "Ur life is damn boring/pathetic! Im hanging up.. bye! c u in school!"

Think back girl/guy friends...
Was there a time like that at all?

Asking you to think..
Coz I know you're reading..
Amy Ramli<3mfe

When Emo-ness takes over

Yea..
Feel like crying
Wondered why..
Owh yea.. its Friday.. My normal emo-day..

Cried like crazy..
If i actually bucket up my tears today..
I think it'll be half full now...

Emo-Princess
Amy Ramli<3mfe

11th Month Anniversary

I was kinda thinking on sending through SMS..
But I was having second thoughts on it...
Because of ur phone being assholish at times...

Anyways heres the message.. :

When the night comes,
The Moon rises,
The stars shine,
The entire night glows,
Bringing joy & love to the atmosphere,
How glad I am to be with you this long
Can't be decribed,
For I Love You now and always..
Take my words into your heart..
And you will see...
Today is our 11th month anniversary...

Ily...

The Loved and Loving
Amy Ramli<3mfe