Saturday, November 8, 2008

Depressed

I had a splendidly well taught of a boring day... I can't imagine what is wrong with me... I'm just not feeling like myself much.. Then suddenly I thought... Am I going to die? ... Well.. I guess thats a bit too much for me to say.. but u know... its just weird sometimes.. I just get the feeling like I'm going to die that day... Weird rite? Its just soo big of a depression that could cause me sooo much feelings thats just mixed up... I dunno.. then I know why.. A phone call that caused me soo much pain... Everything that I had felt earlier today was what god had given me to prepare for the phone call... That I'm going to make.. I have had a day... thinking of the other person... Missing Him... Then i suddenly remembered my BFF.. i haven't called her in like 2 days... Soo I called her.. I asked where she is... She told me she's at one of our fren's house... she's having a GAP* then.. it hit me... WTH??? I thought she'll invite me... She's been talking bout the party infront of me.. I thought maybe she forgot 2 invite me or maybe she'll call me or something.. But u knwo what?? 2day is the party and.. NO NOTES NO MESSAGES.. NO CALLS.. from that fren or ours... PISSED? YES... ANGRY? YES... DEPRESSED? COMPLETELY... BROKEN HEARTED? 100%...

What do u expect me to do? Back off from my BFF just because YOU have a grudge against me for being sooo close to her? WTH???? SO??? If You have a prob with me .. Come and say it to my face!!! I could've repair the damage that I have done to you... BTW... If You are a trying to make me break up with her... U WISH!!!!

Its darn painful... To face this situation..... Look its already enough that I overheard your conversation with my BFF.. saying that you don't like me.. And I tried to change myself... at least I tried... Then.. when I heard that you ALL just don't want me to be close with my BFF... That is just more than I can face... YOU CAN JUST WISH 4 ME TO BREAK UP WITH HER!!! Coz I'm not.. I'm not running away this time... Coz I'm going to face whats coming towards me... Whether You Like It Or Not... Guessing that you don't then...

*GAP=Going Away Party

1 comments:

Flaffy said...

We don't change ourselves for the sake of pleasing the others, but to create a better us in our point of view. Whatever we do, whatever we say, it should come right from the bottom of our hearts. We can’t make everyone on this planet to like us, but we always try our best to be someone who is loved by the people we care, someone we would not regret to be. Stay strong and face the obstacles as there are more of them coming right up. So, cheer up girl! =)